December 28th 2005
I stayed up to about six this morning working on a new layout. Then I went to sleep. And now I’m watching Judging Amy, after having slept for about five hours.
This show is one of my favorites. I’m not even sure what it has that gets me, but I’ve teared up and even cried a few times. I cried a little today when this thirteen year-old killed her best friend (car accident)…it was sad.
I always try to be less emotional because I hate sappy people. Well, it just annoys me. They’re not strong. And I want to be strong and independent. But I’m romantic and sappy. I think I’m going to stop trying to pretend those emotions aren’t there. I also think I have a good motherly instinct, which I always used to suppress. But I have decided to quit pretending that I’m tougher than I really am.
‘Cause what’s the point? I hate being fake, especially because it takes so much work. But I’ve done that quite a lot. So now I’m going to try and stop.
I miss Don. He’ll be back in a couple days. And all this love stuff on the tv show, really makes me miss him more. There’s also some baby stuff on the show, and it really makes me want a baby.
So what the hell happened to me? I never used to be like this.
December 28th 2005
Okay, so Annie told me to post. And I’m going to. This is my first post since November 9th. That’s like a month and a half. So what’s happened in that time?
Uh, NOTHING of interest. At all. Period. The end. How boring. :sneer:
Let’s start with school. Well, so I got expelled. I don’t remember if I mentioned this or not. But I did. Then they unexpelled me. And I went to this discipline school for the last six weeks. I’m not even sure why, but whatever. So I go back to my regular school on the 3rd.
And on the 2nd of January, I get my braces off! :up: That’s super. I’ve only had them a year and nine-ish months. Or eight-ish. Whatever. It’s been long enough, methinks.
Whoa, I totally got distracted for like ten minutes. I went to Kawaii MB, looked around, posted once, and talked to Annie a bit. Fun stuff.
So as for my real life…there’s Don. We are great. <3 I absolutely love him and things are going wonderfully. It’s been almost four months now. He’s hunting right now. I spent all of last week with him, which was great. Since he lives an hour away, sometimes I go a few weeks without seeing him (okay, twice we did that) and it makes me kinda sad. I get to spend New Years with him, though. 
I quit talking to Michael. The ex who is a complete dickface. Pardon my English. (’cause it’s not French) But my mom was getting on my case for talking to him and even though Don didn’t tell me it was seriously bothering him, I knew it was and I didn’t want to put our relationship in danger. So I told him to quit calling and guess what he did? Called me. Like 978324 times. In a day. Left messages, came by my window. Annoying as a mother. Don offered to switch me cell phones and we did and Michael stopped calling when Don kept answering. Then he didn’t call for like a week, then started up again. But thankfully, he’s done. I think.
But when I go back to regular school, I might have to see him. I’m a little worried about that since Don isn’t there with me. If I need to, I can make sure I always have someone with me. And I’ll have a couple of my guy friends helping to make him keep his distance.
I AM SO GLAD TO HAVE HIM OUT OF MY LIFE! Woo! It feels great.
And I miss Don.
So how’s this for a welcome-back post? Good, I hope. :upsidedown:
