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Tomorrow I’m Seventeen!

Well, tomorrow is my birthday. That means I’ll be seventeen. Dang, I’m old. So school’s gone pretty okay. I still haven’t made up everything I need to. And I’m just kind of…there. I’m not going to stress over anything.

Two days ago, I had a fit. I was overly stressed out over school and the Michael issue (he wants to talk to me) and then Don and I were arguing the night before. So Monday, I was in tears all morning and went home early. It was an absolutely horrible day. And I realized that a lot of it had to do with the stress I’m having, but not realizing at school. Which kind of sucks. I have so much homework and I don’t do any of it. I have time and I’m capable; I just don’t feel like doing any of it. So I don’t. And then I’m going to fail. And I honestly don’t even care anymore.

I don’t want to work. I don’t even want to go to college. For me, college was never an option. It was just…assumed. Like breathing. You just do it. And when people asked me if I was going, I’d be like, “Duh. You should be asking me where I’m going, not if I’m going.” After this year, I really don’t want to go through any more schooling. I don’t want a real job. I don’t want to do anything.

If I marry Don, I’m going to be a stay-at-home mom. That’s just it. And if I don’t marry him, then I’ll go through with college and get a job. That’s what I’ve decided.

Don has his football banquet this Saturday and I’m going. So it’s semi-formal. I got my nails done and I look so cute. =) I need to find a cute shirt to wear with this skirt I have. And some cute sandals…